Day 64, Saturday, November 12 2011: Trolli Gummi Bears

Oh my god, I bought a 1 kg box of Trolli Gummi Bears. On the box is a funny comic figure printed  and I sketched the face of it and also created a colourful picture of the Gummi Bear Land.  It is just the best and happiest moment for me to eat the little delicious figures. I am trying to reduce my sweets intake, but I think some exceptions need to be once in a while. So I spoilt myself and now I have a Gummi Bear belly and feel a bit sick as I almost finished the whole kg in one day. I know for most people that is extreme, however not for me. I could just eat and live from sweets for days as I honestly did in the past, like 3 days no normal food, just sweets and then in kg amounts. Most people wonder that I am not fat, when they realized how much of it I eat. However when I do not need normal food, my body just lives from the calories of the sweets and also I do regularly sports and I move around a lot in general as well. I remember even like 1 year ago I ate for one week almost only sweets and very few normal food and I even lost weight in that week! But I know that that is unhealthy and so I really try to limit myself and my goal is to get rid of my sweets addiction.

Day 63, Friday, November 11 2011: Schönebeck

It is just 9 pm, so relatively early for my usual posts and timing for the drawing or better to say sketch. I just wanna book a flight later this evening, so I kind of want to have my project done. The date of today is quite funny, 11.11.2011 and at 11:11 the time of carneval begins in Germany and lots of people make crazy things and noise at that time, I remember that very well from my old school days. Well, today at home nothing happened, home in my hometown Schönebeck, a pretty grey, foggy and cold day, just around 4 degrees and very far to cold for me. I can’t help, but I just drew my impressions and its just grey, a bit sad and not much content as well. I am also really looking forward to leave again and travel for a more colourful and adventurous life. Its not completely negative, actually not at all, but kind of grey and boring, however some curves are a bit playful and show the life which of course exists. Also in the afternoon I was visiting my grandpa again and we were playing a game “Rummy”, you have to collect little cards from 1 until 13, I wrote the numbers in the center of the picture. You can hardly read them, its not very sharp, everything is a bit blurry, well that is on purpose.

Day 62, Thursday, November 10 2011: Postcard with Palmtrees

Still sorting out in my room and throwing lots of stuff in the garbage, slowly my room is getting empty. Its really enough and I can’t see my old little 4 walls anymore, basically its kind of annoying to be inside all day long and sorting stuff. Back in Australia I was outside almost all day long and it was sunny and warm weather, I really miss that now. Well so I found old postcards and one I really liked: Palmtrees in the Dominican Republic and so I got inspired for my drawing today. I am kind of dreaming of palmtrees and relaxation in the sun. Its not real, just a dream, so the colours are just in brown. But also I like brown and warm colours, it is just calming.

Day 61, Wednesday, November 9 2011: Sauna 3

Yes I was again in the sauna, this time I actually had the feeling, that I am already more used to it again. Basically it was not so superhot like last week, where I felt like I am cooking inside. My drawing is in blue and pink again to show the contrast of the heat and the cold water. Also it is about my dads big belly and his love for food and eating. So the curve at the bottom is a big belly and also there is a little figure with big “curves”. The word “Mampf” is a german slang word meaning the process of eating.Today I was sorting and saving some more old photos and I noticed that I took heaps of pictures of my dad eating or showing his belly. I guess I did it a bit on purpose, however it made me and also my dad laugh today.

Day 60, Tuesday, November 8 2011: Photoalbums

It is again already midnight. The whole day I was looking through my old photoalbums and scanning some good ones, that I also have the digital version. While I was travelling before I had that goal, as I just wanted to see some photos from my childhood, but that was not possible. I only had photos from the last 3 years on my laptop. Well today I started to change that and I even have some babyphotos saved now. The old photoalbums I stored in a carton box. Also I checked some old CDs and saved those photos on an external drive. Lots of sorting and watching and getting memories again and also laughing about funny old pictures.
So my drawing shows my impressions of today, photos, sorting and saving and thinking of past moments.

Day 59, Monday, November 7 2011: Fuchur

Yesterday evening I also met my friends Susann and Olli again. Susann has a really cute cat Fuchur and I just sketched him today while driving back home from Berlin to my parents place again. 

Day 58, Sunday, November 6 2011: Sleep In

It was nice yesterday to see my old theatre friends again and watch their show. After I met my old highschoolfriend Anja again and we were talking almost nonstop about old times. There were also some other friends in the bar, even Andrew, one of my coworkers from Australia, who is travelling in Europe at the moment and is also in Berlin that weekend! However Anja and me must have been a bit like nonstop talking ladys for hours without even taking much breaths, hopefully we were not that annoying! Today we slept almost all day as we were as usual partying very long again. So I just sketched a woman while sleeping and dreaming.

Day 57, Saturday, November 5 2011: Closed Eyes

I am on my way to Berlin again over the weekend to see a theatre performance of my old theatre group and go to a party later on. I quickly did my experimental drawing. I thought that that kind of drawing with the closed eyes idea is quite relaxing, especially when your schedule is kind of busy. So today I really was persistent and did not add anything after 10 minutes of drawing with closed eyes. I would love to add some elements, but so for today I really did a drawing with totally closed eyes. Can you picture any of my imaginative images, which came to my mind?

Day 56, Friday, November 4 2011: Closed Eyes Test

I just did some online stuff, emails etc. and sorted out my room a bit more. For my drawing I tried something new, and timed 10 minutes I drew with closed eyes very quickly elements that were coming up to my mind. I saw lots of images and drew them extremely quickly and then the next one, next one and so on. As I was not looking, all the lines got combined and messed up of course. After opening my eyes I was shocked and did not like it at all and just added some elements intuitively, where I felt it would look better with a bit more contrast at some spots.

Day 55, Thursday, November 3 2011: Photoshooting

It is 10 pm and I just got home from a photoshoot. I am quite exhausted, maybe because I haven’t had a shooting in ages, or at least a very long time. The shoot was in the afternoon and then the train takes around 2 hours back home. While driving I did my drawing, actually I wanted to draw a woman from a magazine, but I was just to tired and exhausted for a detailed picture. So I did it a bit more abstract, actually because it is just easier and faster, and also I am not that good in faces. At the bottom you can see some dresses and shoes, it shows the change of clothes for me today. The whole image looks a bit chaotic and stressed, well like it was for me today and usually in shoots, packing all your stuff and travelling, changing your wardrobe and smiling the whole day, also when you don’t feel like smiling all the time. That shall not sound negative now, I love shoots, that is why there is also a sun in the picture; however shootings are not only nice and sweet like sugar. Oh I and my sugar!!! I think I love it so much and I am still so addicted to it, I just have trouble to live without it even for some days only.

Day 54, Wednesday, November 2 2011: Chocolate Cake

This morning I was baking 2 chocolate cakes for my family, the first I tried the recipe from the farm in Germany. Actually the dough of the cake tastes better than  the baked result, so my drawing is very dynamic and stands for the delicious liquid chocolate dough as well as the ready baked cake. In the afternoon my dad and me visited my grandparents and my uncle to have some delicious cake, tea and coffee together.

Day 53, Tuesday, November 1 2011: Sauna 2

I am still soo hot, I was in Sauna again, now the second time since the time before my farmexperience. After being inside for the first 15 minutes I was lying down, feeling a bit dizzy and staring at my feet and legs and so I just drew them in a bit of a comic style. Ah yeah and a good thing is that my feet are nice, soft and clean again, since a couple of days already; however the sauna gave them the last beautykick and finally I have cityfeet again. Allright in the drawing they look kind of ugly and more like animal legs, but that is more like a comic sketch and on purpose to not to be boring. The background is pink and shows the heat of the sauna. It heats up my cold german november feet and legs.

DAY 52, Monday, October 31 2011: No Halloween Party

The first time I did not have a Halloween Party in years, I remember 2 years ago in Canada it was huge and really awesome! However in Germany its not that big compared to what it is in America. So I had a nice family day with my parents, walking in parks, lunch in a very good restaurant and in the evening we went to see a funny, satirical political cabaret performance. The title and the location are included in my drawing, also a sketch of the protagonists Lothar Bölck and Hans-Günther Pölitz.

DAY 51, Sunday, October 30 2011: Timemachine

I am now back in my parents place and just finished my drawing. I drew at first some elements of Berlin, like the world clock and a kangaroo icon of the Australian Restaurant in Berlin Potsdamer Platz, where I was eating lunch today with a good friend Tommy. Well I am back home, but I am still so much in Australia Fever, that I just needed to go to the Australian Restaurant and also ate my beloved kangaroo meat. Tommy had some doubts and only tried a tiny little piece of my plate. Actually lots of people, also lots of Australians are worried about eating it, in my eyes they are realling missing something, it just tastes superdelicious!

So at first I started with a realistic approach but changed my mind spontaneously and so the rest of the picture is more imaginative and abstract due to my emotions.

Today I also met my old flatmate Adam and a good friend Jan. Its a bit weird to see your old friends again after 2 years of not seeing them at all. But actually to me it feels more like I am in a timemachine and just living back in the past, as really when you talk to each other nothing noticably has really changed, which is a good but also unreal feeling. 

DAY 50, Saturday, October 29 2011: After the Party

Oh my god, I am still hangover and it is evening already again. I was leaving the club at 1 pm, that is totally normal in Berlin! My friends are actually still awake and partying and I am alone now in my friends place! However even I was partying and dancing from like 11 pm till 1 pm, which is quite a bit time with 14 hours. It was awesome and I also met lots of people again, I haven’t seen in the last 2 years. I am so exhausted now, I am not capable of doing anything tonight except surfing a bit in internet and watching a movie. I just draw some intuitive things all in blue, as my after party exhaustement is described the best in blue.

DAY 49, Friday, October 28 2011: Ladyprofile

I am in Berlin again over the weekend. On my trip I was drawing a pretty lady inspired from a magazine, however in the magazine she looks better, but well I tried. In the afternoon I met Michael, an independant producer, I am currently working as executive producer for some international shoots and as well as actress, and we were discussing about some future projects. For Dinner I met my uncle Lutz in a nice restaurant. Now I am at a Preparty to go clubbing with my beloved friends Olli and Bernd.

DAY 48, Thursday, October 27 2011: My Room

It is just 8:30 pm, but I will do a sportsvideo later on. So I decided to write before to make sure that I am not to tired after. My drawing shows my chaos in my room, all the little things I can see, little toys, clocks, flowers and nothing is in real order. Actually I was not motivated at all to make a drawing, I kind of forced myself to make a start and then I was looking forward to finish it quickly. It had to be fast and so you can see it in the result, I didn’t care if all the little objects are looking good, I just drew in a trance without caring at all, what it will look like.

During the day I visited Alex, an old friend from school and now she already has a baby since August 8, so little Samuel is already 2,5 months old. Times are changing, finally a few things happened the time I was away. We were baking some Pizza together and talking and cuddling the baby. She is really happy with her little family and they are so cute together. It is really nice to keep in touch after such a long time and you are still like old friends even if you haven’t seen each other since years.

Well, so much memories are coming up, but now its time for some sports!

DAY 47, Wednesday, October 26 2011: Haribo Vampire

Half of the day was filled by sorting out more stuff from my room and the other half my dad and me visited my grandpa again and we played some games together and in evening after dinner I called some friends and ate some delicious Haribo Vampires. They are a mixture between licorice and gummy bears and are just awesome delicious and addictive. In the centre of my drawing is one Vampire, the mood of the picture is pretty dark as my desire and addiction for sugar is really annoying me. My goal of this project was not to eat sweet stuff anymore, but I just can’t! I guess I would become really depressive. However I am improving a lot and the consumed quantities are getting much less than it used to be. I am trying my best and lets see what will happen until Day 80.

DAY 46, Tuesday, October 25 2011: Sauna 1

It is already 11:30 pm and I am quite tired again, like lots of times since I started the project. Timemanagement is not really my strength, I have to admit its very hard to find the time each and every day to draw and write a little a bit. The whole day I was sorting out old paper and stationary stuff and threw tons in the garbage, however I still have very far to much crap I just cannot throw away, because I feel attached to it like old diaries for example or I feel it could be still useful. That sorting out just takes ages, a couple of days is definitely not enough to get my room organized. Actually sometimes I feel smothered by all my stuff. Anyways tonight I spoilt myself and went to Sauna. I haven’t been in a Sauna since end of May. There in Sydney I went once a week, but then on the farm there was no sauna. So it was extremely hot for me but at the same time very relaxing. In between my sauna breaks I did my drawing, the pink stands for the heat and the blue for the cold water from the shower and the bubble water I drank. And one good thing as well is that my feet are now almost clean from the red dirt from the station, yes only almost, there is still a little bit stain and soar parts.

DAY 45, Monday, October 24 2011: Lady, legs and stuff

Today felt a bit like christmas as I found even more clothes in cartons in the garage, it is pretty amazing how much clothes I have! And they are still in good condition and I still would wear them or would even buy them, when I would see them in a store. Sadly enough I just cannot take them with me, because it is only allowed to travel with a suitcase of 20 kg. I guess I would need 100 kg just to take all my favourite pieces. And I already threw a couple of bags and suitcases out to give them to a second hand store. For my drawing I got inspired by an old dutch comic book I just found, I drew the face of a lady from that book, her body is a bit abstract due to my creation.

DAY 44, Sunday, October 23 2011: Cheesecake

That was a weekend! I am super exhausted and tired now. I only slept like 3 hours last night and then I was awake the whole day and now its already 10:25 pm. Actually it was not more than 4 hours of sleep in the last 3 nights per night, I had quite an action program going on. Yesterday I spent with Susann and Valeria in Berlin. In the evening I met Anja, an old friend from highschool I haven’t seen in years, as she was also travelling a lot in the last years and she was also in Australia, so we were talking about our experiences and adventures. We were partying until 7 am at Lovelite Club and before we were eating dinner in a restaurant and went to a homeparty until midnight. However it was awesome in Berlin and Berlin is definitely a great city, even though the temperatures are to cold for me in October already!

Today at lunchtime I took the train back to Schoenebeck to meet an old friend Maik and his girlfriend Susi and now also their little baby daughter Lisa. Some things have changed finally the time I was away, he didn’t even think of kids, the last time I have seen him! We were eating cheesecake together at my parents house. So for my drawing I had no better idea than the delicious cheesecake, or at least half of it, thats what is still left over now.

Day 43, Saturday, October 22 2011: Feel Alive

Valeria and me slept only like 4 hours because Susann woke us up at 9 am and made us a beautyful breakfast. We felt spoilt like in a hotel, even though we were extremely tired and still are. Fresh bread, tomatoes, cheese, orange juice, fruits and also sweet Milchschnitte. J Now we are getting ready to go out for a walk and a cafe in the city soon. Not much time for a drawing now. We are listening to the song Feel Alive from Cosmo Klein and I just made a quick sketch for now. The song is awesome and really helps to get motivated to get awake!

Day 42, Friday, October 21 2011: Strawberry Lime

I am in Berlin over the weekend Valeria and me just came back from Club 40 seconds, we had a great party with lots of Strawberry Lime Drink. That is why the whole picture is in red only, I just did the sketch in 13 minutes as I want to go to bed now, my eyes are almost closed already.

Day 41, Thursday, October 20 2011: Hats

It is after midnight already, as I was calling a friend and before I did a sportsvideo in late evening, actually the first time since I am away from the farm. So I didn´t do any sports for almost 3 weeks! Not that good, but travelling keeps you very busy.
Today I was sorting out my tons of clothes and hats. Lots of stuff I will give to second hand stores. Anyways I still have soo much I cannot throw away, well I could, but I think it is still to nice to give it away. Actually it would be much easier just to throw all the stuff away, but I am more a person who prefers to keep at least some stuff, it is just to hard to say Good Bye to my beloved clothes. Also I have a kind of hat addiction, which I luckily lost a bit while travelling, because you just don´t have the space in your luggage for accessories. So I was good today and sorted out quite a lot of my hats collection. However so I had no better idea for my drawing today and I only could think of hats.

Day 40, Wednesday, October 19 2011: Bathtub

I just had my first bath in a bathtub since ages, probably more than 2 years. In Canada and Australia I only had a shower all the time. And I used a relaxing flower oil, that’s why you can see the flower in the drawing and the light blue symbolizes the water. Additionally I added some grapes and a glas of wine, which are printed on the Haribo Winegums bag, which I ate today. I love lollies or gums or whatever you call them in English, in german they are “Gummibärchen”. Unfortunately they are full of sugar and so not good for me and I should not eat them, but I couldn´t resist my addiction and love for them. The whole picture is very pale and the colours are not very vivid, the same is my impression of Germany at the moment. The atmosphere is a bit sad and depressive and it is so cold, it is only around 10 degrees at daytime and I am freezing all the time. When I am thinking back of Australia, it appears to me like paradise land compared to here. It is a weird feeling not to like my own home anymore, well maybe it is mainly the weather, because I just hate cold temperatures. So in the background it is darkgrey to show this negative atmosphere, but at least the trees still have leaves and so there are some green elements in the picture. However mainly I need a good bath and Lollies to lighten up my mood.
Well but that is just my impressions and emotions, apart from that I had a good time today to see my grandparents and I visited them the whole day and we were cooking and eating and played some games. They also have moved from their house into a nice flat. 

DAY 39, Tuesday, October 18 2011: So Sad

Now it is 10:30 pm and I guess I will go to bed soon, not feeling very happy. A few hours ago I got a very sad message via facebook email. Tammy and Gooch from the farm messaged me and I was like..ah what they are writing and I did not expect something terrible like that at all. Kirsty and Alexander, we met like 3 weeks ago in Top Springs passed away at the weekend in a car accident. I don’t know them very well, but I liked them a lot and they were like good friends to me that night and she even wanted to visit me in her holidays. Why do people have to die so young? They were just in their early twenties! That message was a real shock for me and I couldn’t help to cry. While I was doing my drawing I was crying as well and I just drew without thinking, I just added all the stuff intuitively and I picked my silver pen, don’t ask me why. The process of drawing helped me to get over the shock a bit and I felt much better after. Then I called a good friend, Susann and actually I didn’t tell her what happened; we just talked about lots of other stuff as we haven’t seen each other in the last 2 years. However I feel much better now.
Other than that I had a pretty good day and have seen my grandpa this morning also for the first time in 2 years, he has moved in a new flat now and still needs some time to get used to it. But he is still quite fit for his 92 years.

DAY 38, Monday, October 17 2011: Nothing Changed

Nothing really changed in my hometown Schoenebeck, the vibe, the shops, buildings, except some stores have disappeared and it is only 2 degrees, too cold! I was going to my Bank to set up online banking for some saving fonds I still have and almost forgot about as I could never access them from abroad. The workers at the bank were all the same, living their daily routine since years! Wow is that unreal to me! Mine changed at least every couple of months and sometimes from one extreme to another, different jobs, different countries, different lifestyles from rich and poor, city and country, workaholic and lazy traveller. I just experienced and lived soo many adventures in the last 2 years, that it more feels like 20 years to me sometimes, but on the other hand I still feel very childlike and I am defininately not grown up or wise, like it should be after really living 20 years. It is hard to describe or understand, I just can say that I lived every moment to the fullest. However then I come back home and here everything is the same, its just strange to realize for me. Maybe it sounds arrogant or something, however I have absolutely the satisfying feeling that I have done exactly the right thing, that I went to Canada and Australia and travelled.

Later I did some cosmetics shopping at Rossmann and enjoyed the good products and how incredibly awesome and cheap stuff they are having, much much better than in Australia or Canada! There everything is like double prize for worse quality. That is why my parents sent me sometimes parcels with cosmetics from home. :-) In the evening I did a Zumba DVD with my mum, funnily she also got a DVD to workout at home sometimes. Now I quickly did my drawing, some flowers inspired by the bouquet I gave my parents yesterday.

DAY 37, Sunday, October 16 2011: Driving Home

Today we were driving the whole day in a Bus from Frankfurt to Magdeburg. While driving I drew a bit the landscape I saw from the buswindow and also called my parents and still said, that I am on the farm, after a while I told them about my surprise that I am actually in Germany and on the way back home. They couldn’t believe it and were extremely excited. In early evening we arrived in Magdeburg, Valeria visited her mum and I got picked up by my brother from the busstation. He is the only one from my family, I informed about my surprise visit. Then we drove home to my parents and I invited them for dinner. We were taking some photos and talked a lot. I am really happy to be home now for a bit. But its definitely to cold here, 3 degrees only!! That is crazy for me now, I had no winter for more than a year, so it feels more like –10 to me! Why is it so cold already in October? I mean its still autumn! Also its weird that nothing really has changed at home, the streets, the house all looks the same than 2 years ago. It just feels strange to me, because I travelled the world and experienced so many different adventures in the last 2 years. Now I am back and its like all is still the same, which really is an unreal feeling for a reason I also don’t really understand. 

DAY 36, Saturday, October 15 2011: Chamomile Tea

Yesterday we had a great party in Frankfurt without spending a cent at all. I guess that has never happened to me before, I only payed for my trainticket to the club. There we were invited all the time. Actually I didn’t even think about it and it was not on purpose to save money or anything. One reason was that Valerias knows the barkeeper and we got in for free in the club and later on all the guys just invited us all the time, thanks a lot! We were partying very long, until 7 am in the morning. I slept almost the whole day today and just went to a supermarket in the evening to buy some food for us. Poor Valeria only slept a couple hours as she had to work in the afternoon. In evening we had very delicious tomato and mozzarella salad and yoghurt. I haven’t had mozzarella in more than a year I think, because I  haven’t really seen it in Australia or maybe I just didn’t really check the cheese section, because its so much more expensive, but here in Germany there are lots of choices to select from. Also I had almost no yoghurt in the last months. Later I had a cup of Chamomile Tea on Valerias bed and that is also, what my drawing is about today. A cup of tea surrounded by flowers, which are inspired by the bedsheets which have flowerprints as well.

DAY 35, Friday, October 14 2011: Flying

The time in Barcelona was going too quickly as I enjoyed it there a lot, it is a really nice place for everything from sightseeing, art, shopping, clubbing, beaches and so on and so forth. And the whole atmosphere of the city is relaxed, which is very awesome after working a lot and having a little travel marathon with too long flights. However my ears are still weird from the air pressure while landing, I guess especially my cold is still a bit there, running nose and ears that don’t really hear so good at the moment.

This morning I was walking around a bit at Park Guell and enjoyed Gaudis work a lot. Also I did a bit more souvenir shopping for my family and got some vases, a salt and pepper shaker and 2 cups in Gaudi Design.

11 am I checked out in the hostel to get to the airport and catch my flight to go back to Frankfurt. Around 6 pm I arrived and now its 7 pm and I just got back to Valerias appartement. She will come back soon from work and we will go out a bit.

My drawing I did during the flight and I got inspired by the nature, as also Gaudi has said. Flowers and plants, a river I have seen from the airplane window, clouds, the sun, seachells I have seen at the beach in Barcelona, a coconut which I ate yesterday, some hearts as I got emotional and also the airplane itself.

Also today I missed the station a lot again, actually I do every day, which I would have never expected before. However today was very intense. In the airplane were some babies, which reminded me on the 3 little kids there. Then I saw some tourists with straw cowboy hats, now cowboy hats have a completely different meaning to me than before. Now I always have to think of the cattle stations in the Northern Territory. So I also added a Cowboyhat in the drawing. Also I miss the stunningly beautiful sky with stars, I have never seen so awesome before, as it just looks different in the city. Even being dirty I kind of miss, is that weird! 

DAY 34, Thursday, October 13 2011: Barcelona 2

Barcelona is just beautiful. I bought a dayticket for a Hop on Hop Off Sightseeing Bus with Information about the places via earplugs. That kept me busy all day long and I took tons of photos and was so impressed by the stunning architecture of most places. Also it has so much artistic flair and you could see creations of famous artists like of course Gaudi, Dali, Miro and Picasso. I was sitting always on top of the open air bus to have a good view and tons of times I just had a WOW effect. I was just soo impressed and thought WOW all the time. Also the city is full of palmtrees and I love them! So for my drawing today I just pictured my beloved palmtrees and added some pink words which say WOW and one with BEAUTIFUL.